Unexpected Weekend Off.

I find myself unexpectedly with out plans and no place to be at anytime. For two straight days!
I also find myself compleatly broke.
I do believe tho We will make the best of it and play, clean, relax, and enjoy eachother.
Spring is around the corner and today wont be as warm as other days but its still warmer than Michigan.
Im thinking Im ready for hot weather, and Im still counting down for my pool to open. (2 months and 5 days!)
I do believe Ill be spending everyday there again this summer.
<3

I dont have a title

I'm not sure anymore 
David is so unhappy here
I know he wants to be back in Michigan. He thinks I don't want him here.
It hurts to look at him he looks so sad and depressed. He left my David and came back someone else. 
I feel so guilty
I feel selfish keeping him here. I know I love him and I love him enough for him to leave but it'll kill me 
And when I tell him this he gets mad thinks I'm pushing him away.
I'm not
I just want his happiness
It means a lot to me for him to be happy
I'm not sure how to make him happy
I'm failing as a wife
I don't know what to do
I don't know how to do it
I'm lost even more now than ever

I love David more than anything
Just wish it were enough