Im not even sure

So I got my wig in the mail... Unsure how I still feel about this.
Its like wearing a hat. and I am def not a hat person. Tho instead of my wig I may wear a hat to work today IDK,
Its pretty tho. and if my hair ever decides to come back I do think Ill be going for the same style. Its dark and Im not a fan of that. I like my light brown hair.
I havent cut my hair sense I noticed the hair loos. Its longish for me. harder to put up in a wig. I really would cut it if David would let me. Then again I think it would be so much more noticable if I did. 16 more days til my first dr appt. Unsure how that will turn out. kind of scared. No really scared!! Ill be on my own and I think instead of taking Layne Ill leave him behind too. Less to worry about at the time.
Confused in this whole mess. I do not like it. Its very hard being so young and not sure if ill ever have my own hair again. I pray it will come back, and I pray my children wont have to deal with it. Scared more for them than myself.